You guys. They said yes. They actually said yes.
I will begin midwifery school this fall, though I wish I could start tomorrow. I've waited years, years, to become a midwife. I could go on and on (and I probably will for weeks, so bear with me) about how long I've wanted to do this for my future. Now I am here to tell you that things can happen. Dreams and big ideas and tiny goals that you only whisper to yourself late at night are real. I am so excited I might just float away.
If you see me floating around, just let me go. I want to bottle this feeling and carry it with me as I throw myself into what will be the busiest, most demanding, four years of my life. I want to dance around and twirl and declare to most anybody that I'm going to be a midwife. I think I'll be a good one.
I'm not sure what this will mean for this blog. I'm about to embark on a very busy summer leading up to a very busy fall, and a very busy winter, and you get the idea. Will I have time to return here, to store little bits of my everyday life while the whirlwind takes off around me? I hope so. This blog is where I come to exhale, and I'll need that more than ever as the year continues. But there is so much real life going on that deserves my attention, I can't make any promises to myself. I'll just take it one busy day at a time.
Now, bring on the babies.
Be well!
Having been with you (so to speak) when you didn't get in last year, it is absolutely thrilling and restorative of my faith in the good the universe can bring to hear this news!! You'll be amazing. You ARE amazing! And if you stop blogging you can give me your mailing address and I'll send postcards to brighten your day. How many years of study do you have ahead of you??
ReplyDeleteThank you for all the great thoughts! I don't think I could ever stop blogging :), at least not for the time being. But if I do I hope we'll exchange addresses and be old-fashioned.
DeleteI have four years of full-time study ahead of me!
Yaaaayyyyyy! A hip-hip-hooray and bravo, too!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy for you :-)
xo
I have been grinning for two weeks.
DeleteI found your blog by reading your waterbirth story on Kveller. I just want to say thank you - I'm delivering my son via waterbirth in August at the Birth Center (I have an appointment with Dorinda on Thursday, I can tell her you said hello if you like). My husband was originally very scared and put off by the idea of not delivering at a hospital. At one point he even exclaimed "This is not the way Jews do things!" So I am super excited to show him an article on a Jewish blog about a Jewish woman who gave birth in the same tub I'm going to deliver in. :-) Thanks.
ReplyDeleteThis makes me so happy! Yes, Jews do these things, too ;). Please do say hello to Dorinda for me (though Sarah and Katie were at my birth). The Birth Center is such a lovely place. I hope your husband will come to feel comfortable. The midwives and nurses are professional and competent and would never hesitate to transfer someone to a hospital if needed.
DeleteAnd the water was amazing! All the best!