This Monday comes after a bit of an emotional week for me. My grandmother has been very sick, but she seems to be on the mend now, thankyouthankyou. You know how you sometimes wait until after a traumatic event before you start to cry? It's as though your body needs all the adrenaline and energy you can muster to get you through something hard or terrifying--an accident, a terrible argument, a confrontation at work--and then, only then, are your guards released and you really begin to feel your own reaction. It was like this with my grandmother. My mum has always been close to her mother and has remained deeply involved in her parents' lives, so I'm used to being there, in the middle of things, when stress levels rise. I've written before about how much my grandmother means to me, but it wasn't until now, until after the worst of it, that I've realized just how frightened I was at the thought of losing her.
My grandmother is doing well this week, back at home (with extra help), and so very grateful to be out of the hospital. My grandfather is equally relieved to have his wife back at home. Spirits have been lightened and as scared as I was, I'm optimistic. I feel like the worst is behind us and it's time to celebrate by getting back to the rest of my world. Holy cow, you guys, did you realize that it's the third week of January? Why didn't you tell me it was moving so quickly? Can you give me head's up next time?
But I have a plan.
I wrote those resolutions (and these) last week, quite of few of them if you remember. I mentioned a few times that I created this extensive list with the goal of taking small, manageable steps toward the life I love. These aren't gargantuan goals that require me to give up everything I love, or adopt a new life philosophy. I can still schedule in plenty of time to lounge on the couch watching Girls (yay!) this winter. I'm excited about all the cooking and sharing of food that's included in my list. Less excited about the dentist. Either way I've decided to work this list into my everyday life and I'm going to incorporate my progress for you here each week. There are 100 resolutions on my list and I'm going to attempt to tackle two each week (give or take a handful). I am entering this project with the understanding that I can interpret and re-interpret my list as time goes on. This list will require some commitment but it isn't intended to serve as some kind of resolution boot camp.
I've printed off my resolutions and I'm all set to go. In between my regular posts (and my two jobs), I'll let you know how things are going. What projects are you working on this week?
I always have so much in my head that "I wish"...your resolution list has inspired me to write them down and just do them, even if each one takes me three weeks because of my pile o' kids!
ReplyDeleteThis week: I want to find all the kids' costume bits that are scattered throughout the house, and create a costume corner for them!
I think this is a fabulous project! Love it. I am in the market for some costumes that aren't princesses.
DeleteBTW, it's been two years since my grandma died and I can't tell you how much I miss her, how much I think of her, and how much I wish I'd had one more day with her. I still cry when I think of her, and feel so blessed that I had her in my life for 36 years! Glad to hear your grandma is on the mend...spend every minute you can with her!
ReplyDeleteI was thinking of the post you wrote about your grandmother when all this was going on. I am so blessed that she's doing better. I don't see her often enough and I am going to change that now. I'm so lucky to have this chance. Hugs.
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